I’ve decided to own my life.
To walk through my remaining years
skipping this way and that.
I’ve spent too long renting space,
fearing eviction,
following the arbitrary rules
of a righteous landlord.
And who is this would-be
controller of my world?
That’s a bit of a rub —
I see him in my mirror,
hear his voice in my head,
feel the floor boards shutter
as he stomps down the hall
to demand his due.
But, I’m no longer there.
I’ve moved out,
without notice … just gone
to that lovely cliff overlooking the sea,
watching waves roll in,
listening to the stories
they bring from lands afar.
Free to sit all day
crocheting finger puppets
and dancing to the tune
of the shimmering lights.
Join me if you like.
***
Seventeen days ago, there was a tremor, probably only a 3 on the Richter scale. Nothing fell off the walls; no new cracks in the sidewalk. But, something shifted.
Somewhere near my breast bone, I felt a loosening, a lightness entering, ushering in the words above.
During a small retreat of about forty people, questions appeared, prompting new thoughts. Songs invited misinterpretations that turned into insights. Resistance morphed into wonderings.
Two words followed me home and asked for lodging. I couldn’t say “no” … they were so small and wanted nothing more than a place to rest.
The next day when I awoke, they had rearranged the furniture.
***
On the 17th of each month, I write a love letter to my life. It’s my way of celebrating my death.
We know the day we were born, but most of us do not know the day we will die. I was born on the 17th and began this series of letters 53 months ago to remind myself to be grateful for my joy-filled life.
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What an awesome photo and letter. Yesterday, the 16th, was my 73rd birthday and I appreciate the enthusiasm. Life is short.. live it long🙂
Becky ... you make my heart glow warm. Love you!